Thanks for all the prayers and nice comments over the past few days.
Things are pretty high stress over here as we deal with our emotions over the weekend visit/no-visit with HSSH.
Your continued prayers would really be appreciated.
My high stress affects everyone. I am doing my best to press through and keep functioning. (I even did my tackle today). My bed is made, my kitchen is clean, my bathroom is swished and swiped. I even just burned the hamburger I am going to use in my crock pot meal later today. But, my heart really isn’t in it like it was. I am on the verge of tears, and feel grouchy and angry.
It sucks being the stable one sometimes. The kids take their frustrations out on me that they can’t take out on their dad. Subconsciously mostly. Right now that feels like more than I can handle.
Just keep us in your prayers for us to keep living, and not slip back into only surviving.
My head is starting to hurt. I have to take Kiahna to the pediatrician for her 4 year check up today. There is a ball game at 5. I am sure there will be homework. And all this, with us all being a little more stressed than usual.
Help us Jesus, Amen.
Pam
7 comments:
Yes Dear Jesus! Please help Pam today with whatever she needs! Let her know that you care, and you hear, and give her so much grace that she will not be able to hold it!
My heart aches for you :( I have been in "that place" before and it is scary, and lonely.....it is NOT a good place to be. I am sorry yuo are dealing with this but I think you are doing a GREAT JOB on keeping focus. It would be very easy to not get out of bed in the morning and take care of the kids....Kudos to you for MAKING yourself get through this!
By the way...when I opened your blog my little Maddie (4) saw your Kiahna and said "ohh I don't know who that is but she looks like she could be my friend" lol too cute :)
Angela
Hi Pam,
Just been exploring your blog a little bit. What a story you've got. What a life you are living out for the King! I too, have been where you are, the going back to old ways, not believing God is who he says he is, wanting my children to be with me and not with others that I don't feel they are totally safe with...almost all the things you described. I'm amazed at your strength and your ability to praise God in this storm. It was something I could never do, when I was so deep in despair. Very admirable. I love Trace's "Your Gonna Miss this" it makes me cry everytime, but it's so good to remember, I already miss yesterday with the kids! Blessings on you-
(We ate your pizza meal tonight. Excellent and sooo easy! Thanks for the recommendation.)
Praying for you,
Sarah
You make me feel like I have no room to complain. So sorry you have to go through all of this. You have tons of reasons to be grouchy and angry, not so sure why I feel like that today too, but you give me hope. Keep pressing on.
My kids were ALL grouchy today too! I think it's the hurricane! We're just getting muggy weather and rain from it and I don't suppose it's affecting you there.........but we have to blame it on something. I pray God will be with you through the rough times. I'm so sorry you have to go through this season.
Dia
You are so right, it is hard to be the stable one. I'll continue to keep you in my prayers.
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