“One Day… you will know the truth and it will make you free.
One Day… I know you’ll surrender and let love in.
Oh, I believe in One Day.” --Ayiesha Woods
I made this song the first song to come on when you open my blog today.
Do you have someone that this is a prayer for?
I do.
It’s HSSH.
I’ve prayed for him for so long.
It is so hard to keep believing in One Day.
I had a conversation with him last night. The lies that he believes just keep growing. I wonder how long… When does truth break through? How does truth break through?
Sometimes I feel like “this one” is just too hard.
I can’t take it any more.
God can’t break him.
If you knew the intimate details of the conversations, decisions, and life choices that my ex-husband has made…
…would you look at me with pity and say what a shame it all is... all the while thinking in the back of your mind that I am such a poor thing for ever thinking that something could come of this.
…would you tell me that God is the God of impossibilities. Would you remind me of the story of Daniel, Paul, Mary, Nehemiah, Abraham and Sarah, Noah, David… you know, just about everyone in the Bible…
…would you say that if God said that He was going to restore this family. He will.
The problem in my mind comes when I start to wonder if my idea of what restoration matches Gods. I know that my ways aren’t His.
Pray that TRUTH sets HSSH free.
Pray that TRUTH sets me free.
Pray that TRUTH sets our family free.
Pray that what that looks like brings us all closer to HIM.
I don’t want to stop praying for ""One Day" in HSSH's life... I just don't know how I will survive to that day.
The gap between today and "One Day" has me thinking... I'm done. I'm done playing the game. I'm done listening to the lies and excuses. I'm done being a part of it. Take it away, Dear Jesus.
Why do I bring this up today? I don't know. It's on my heart. My heart that is so very tired of being broken. My heart that needs her savior to come and set it free.
Pam
5 comments:
Ah, God's promises...That's something that is hard to discern. We always seem to see His promises come full circle after the fact, but never during. We don't know what God thinks. We don't know His plans. We only know that He keeps His promises for us, for HSSH, for your kids.
This is so hard for you because you know the truth. HSSH will only know it when God's ready to show him and not before. Hang in there girl. Don't let HSSH's decisions run your life, even though it affects it in most ways. I know you're tired, I am tired with you!
Pam, I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I think you're on the right track. His journey is between God and him--you can't do it for him. You're living your life the best you can to be a witness to God's love, and that's all God or anyone else can ask of you. You've been a wonderful example to me.
I'm sorry that there's so much pain with HSSH. I'm sure that can be overwhelming. {{{Hugs}}}
You hang in there! And whatever God has in store for your family, I can tell that you will stay strong and keep doing what your doing! You seem to be a wonderful, caring mother! I have enjoyed reading your blog! Keep praying and I will keep you in my prayers also! Take care and have a great day!!
What an awesome song "One Day" is! I really like her songs... I had not heard that one yet. Don't stop praying that for him- You can still pray that for him even though it looks so impossible in our eyes! Like we talked about today, we are so 'human' and cannot comprehend His ways or thoughts! God will use all these circumstances and heartaches to bring you and your family closer to Him and use you in so many ways to show Him to others in the process. Praying for that 'truth' with you!
Oh, sweet Pam, oh how I know what you feel. I KNOW what you feel and I'm not just saying that. You know I know. I, too, am so tired of the One Day. I don't know how I'll make it either, from today to One Day.
I love the phrases/questions you propose to the readers of what they'd say.
God IS the God of impossibles. He will make our impossibles possible. Have you read my post: Master's Touch, Our Faith? I have to believe that our faith has some sort of bearing on God. I have to believe He will honor, favor, and bless our faithful belief in Him to restore the dead, the impossible, the unlikely. He will prove us right to believe in His power. He raised a dead man. He didn't choose to heal a sick man but chose to raise a dead and stink' man. Do not doubt. I love Matt. 21:21-22. I tell you the truth if you believe and do not doubt you can do what was done to the fig tree. You can say to the mountain go throw yourself into the sea and it will be done. If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.
And we know what we are asking for is holy and righteous meant to bring Him glory. I did a search once on Matt. 21:22 and two of the conditions it said for this verse was that the request was for our good and it was for God's glory. I don't know if I kept a copy of that search...don't know where it would be if I did. Hard copy somewhere I guess.
Love,
Paula
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