As the fog begins to clear…

Last night as the fog began to clear, and I actually was surviving the evening… I realized that I had let it happen again… the thought that came to my mind was that phrase… “choke”.

I thought, I remember hearing Beth Moore talk about that.  Realizing then that this is what happens to me so often, and had happened again. 

For me it can become almost a physical feeling….maybe some would call it an anxiety attack?  I don’t know… but all the little things… they pile up… and yes.  I begin to worry instead of pray.  I begin to panic rather than trust.  I see the negative rather than the positive.  I fear the worst and fear the future.  It happened.  Again.

I wanted to read the notes I had on what Beth had said on “choke”, then I remembered I had written here about it.  In a quick search of the word “frustration” I found it.  Sure enough.  An exact description again…

Friday morning I was reading through some notes I took at the Beth Moore conference we went to in August.

She used the parable of the sower in Luke 8 as her text.  She was on the part about the seed that was choked out by the weeds.  She used the term, “Stop the choke”.

Oh yeah, I am feeling the choke.

And low and behold, would you believe, she said that the choke is WORRY? Darn…. he was right… this is worry…

Here are the notes I took…

• Anxiety chokes the Word right out of us.
• Exactly the time we need God most, we feel Him the least because we’re worrying this thing so much we’re choking the Word out of us.
• How do we get that choke hold off of us?
• Philippians 4:6..."Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God"
• Anytime we are all anxiety ridden our feeling is loss of control (hummm...)
• Speak truth over it.
• Warriors not worriers.
• Every time we show and anxious spirit we show the enemy we're not trusting God with it.
• Immaturity says I insist on life feeling good. 
• This is a trap for a life of bondage and addiction.
• He'll use your pain to birth your passion
• You will not lack on Spiritual gift that you need to fulfill your destiny.
• All that will matter when we're done here is that life mattered.
• Testify that Gods' Word heals and restores, make the devil wish that he hadn't messed with you!
• You don't have to live in hysteria and chaos. 
• Let HIM change your day.

Sometimes I feel like I will never learn.  My personality of perfection coming out again.  Wanting to learn something once and not get tripped up by it again.  Just isn’t reality is it? 

I thank you for prayers and nice comments… I am blessed to be able to be honest and real with you.  I am thankful that this is a safe place for me to be so. 

I am going to let HIM change my day today!  One moment at a time.

Pam