I have not been too busy to blog the past 5 days. Nope.
Zach was not using my computer for a video project for history class all afternoon on Sunday.
I wasn’t annoyed, or feeling sorry for myself for having to share my computer with my children. Nope. Not Me.
I didn’t deal with overwhelm or anxiety again yesterday. Nope.
I didn’t feel too grouchy to blog. Not Me!
Zach didn’t have a tournament at the school on Saturday that began at 8 am and lasted until 6 pm. Nope. They didn’t play 5 games. And I wasn’t feeling a little more insane than usual as I tried to entertain/survive all those hours with my poor children at the school. Nope.
I didn’t come home exhausted (how are you more exhausted from sitting and watching, oh and stressing out with grumpy preschoolers) than the ones that played!
Because, the ones that played didn’t have to START their history project AFTER the game. Because they didn’t wait until the weekend before it was due to even consider starting it. Nope.
We didn’t spend most of Sunday afternoon/evening trying to get their video to save to a disk. I didn’t feel like pulling every last hair out of my head, and hate my computer (thus no blogging!) by the time we went to bed. (I had given up!)… only to realize on Monday that we truly don’t have a dvd burner on our computer… so that is why that dvd wouldn't burn. AHHHHHHH!!!!!! Not Me! I wouldn't do anything that mind blowingly frustrating!!
One of James classmates, and friend’s didn’t come over and save us from ourselves, burning the dvd onto a dvd using her laptop. Nope. She isn’t a school photographer and didn’t try to teach me how to use my new camera, because I am so not clueless in that area either. Not Me! (THANKS TIFFANI!!)
I am not completely sick and burned out on basketball games. There isn’t another tournament this weekend, that I have decided I can’t do. Nope.
I don’t deal with guilt when I can’t be there for all my kids activities, or overwhelm when I try. Not Me.
It is not baseball sign up this week. The thought of 3 kids playing baseball and 2 kids running track does not cause me to hyperventilate even a little. Nope.
I didn’t get to go to Zach’s bb games last night by myself. I didn’t enjoy a nice walk with one of the other moms, getting to know her, between the two games. Not Me. (THANKS FOR HELPING WITH THE KIDS MOM!)
That walk and adult conversation wasn’t just what I needed to help me deal with the choke and overwhelm that had been trying to get to me all day.
Jadon didn’t see a Schwann’s truck and say… “Mom. That guy he takes swans”
Kiahna didn’t pull a pitcher of orange juice out of the fridge and spill it all over the floor and dog.. nope. I don't have a sticky dog. Not me.
Later that same day, Kiahna didn’t eat ice cream with the dog on her lap… and the dog is not now ice cream and OJ covered.
There is not a girl playing with a dog, under my chair, now. Nope. That doesn’t annoy me at all either. Not me.
She didn’t cut up Jadon’s homework, break her second gameboy, or rub carmex all over her arms and face yesterday either. Not Kiahna
I didn’t have breakfast and play time with my best friend from high school this morning… and I didn’t find out that we are going to be very close to each other in Florida this spring break! (just like old times, huh Joni!!) (oh, I need to dig out some pictures!!)
It is not only 16 days until we leave for Florida!! I am not getting very excited and longing for green grass… warm sun… sand… relaxing… Nope. Not Me!
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Pam
7 comments:
I just lifted you in prayer after reading this. It tires me. But...you have the strength of the Lord and He will continue to provide.
Could it be that since you have six kids that they would understand you can't and aren't required to go to every event? If you only had one child, I could see it possibly hurting them in their minds. However, there has to be some compromise. One event per child per week or maybe that is what you are already doing. You have to have some me time and some time to accomplish your "to do" list since it does cause anxiety. Could you not attend only one game on Saturday or maybe have attended the first and came back for the last? Just ideas to try to reduce your stress.
Fourteen days...so that means you leave on a Tuesday? I hope it is very refreshing and rest filled for you...go out with your BFF one night too for old times sake.
Boy, you sure do need a warm sun filled break. Lifting you in prayer.
I'm not sitting here feeling very guilty that I'm not at Rebekah's band concert. I'm not completely aware that there are precious few concerts left in her high school career. I didn't choose to stay home and get my younger two kids to bed at a decent time instead of supporting my older daughter.
It's never easy. ;-) *sigh*
Pam,
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I am not now totally exhausted just by reading this post! And I certainly am NOT lifting you in prayer, for God to keep providing friends like the mom at the tournament and James' friend Tiffani to help lift the load RIGHT when they're needed. Nope, not me.. I would never do something like that. But I DO know that God loves you very much, Pam.. and that He loves the way you love your kids. Because through YOUR love.. they see HIS face, each and every day. And unlike so much else that's going haywire these days, THAT is something that you can count on! Praying that the next 16 days will glide by smoothly (ice cream and OJ on a sticky dog? no.. no more of that.. please God...). And that the rhythm of the ocean waves, the warmth of the sand and sun, and the laughter of your children will recharge your spirit and fill your soul to the overflowing.
Praying blessings over you...
Pam2
Wow...I know you didn't have this long list just because you posted on Tuesday instead of MOnday...not you. You had a full weekend my friend. How fun. How fun for that dog too. LOL
You are going in 10 different directions meeting the individual needs of each child completely exhausting yourself and in the end you wouldn't change a thing! So many times I've considered pulling them out of one activity or another for a break, but the bottom line is we'll go that extra mile to make sure each child has there own events. Just remember, they will grow up too quickly and You're Gonna Miss This Moment! :)
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