If you go on my play list (left sidebar) song #94… Bebo Norman, Pull Me Out… I can relate…
tell me now, when does this start feeling
like I understand everything I’m dealing with
first I was young, now it’s all just happening
and what about the way I said that
made you turn around and shake your head
like I don’t even know what I’m asking forthis could be all about just letting go
this could be all about just holding on
I can’t get my feet off of the ground
I wanna run but I don’t know how
can you reach me here and pull me out, can you pull me out, yeah
I wanna scream but there’s no sound
I wanna fly to you somehow
can you reach me here and pull me out, can you pull me outremember when I was young and hungry,
I could take it in, without much money,
I had nothing at all but dreams and time to kill
and now I feel like I’m treading water
and I’m hardly real - I’m just trying harder
to make my way on the earth by standing stillnot a moment too soon You will be my rescue
but tell me how long will it take?can you pull me out? can you reach down and pull me out?
My peace is being tested. It is being tried. What will I do? What will I choose? Will I choose to panic? Will I choose to worry? Will I choose anger? Will I choose to let it “matter”? Will I choose to pick up my sacrifice & start dragging it around with me again?
There really are many choices I can make.
Yesterday was interesting. Without going into details, I talked to HSSH on the phone and it went really well. I was so amazed. Felt like I was talking to a new person!
THEN, we went to the track meet, he was there. And I felt like I had the rug pulled out from under me. The things he said in the conversation he was going to do, he did not do. And I was blindsided.
Despite all of that, he is planning to take all the kids (not Kiahna) from Sunday morning to sometime on Monday. If you follow along, you will already know he has not taken anyone on a visit since Labor Day. So, while I know this is a good thing, at least I want to know that, it is still very hard, and I find myself having to really focus to keep my mind from going to all those places I know I don’t want it to go.
I want my emotion for next week to be Thankfulness. I want to choose to be thankful in this time. I want peace to remain. I want to be joyful & singing…
I know I am no able.
Not on my own.
He needs to Pull Me Out…
Pam
5 comments:
Pam,
Thanks for stopping by my post today on 5 moms. I think I would be lost without the Meme's for real. I try and do all of the ones that surround my kids. Since the blog is about my kids. The 5 moms is supposed to be a change...scared of change.
I hope that next week your vlog emotion is thankful because I could totally see that you had peace in your vlog.
Hugs,
Mimi
I got your two text yesterday but was not feeling well so I didn't reply.
IF you want to share, you know you can email me but I don't want you to have to repeat things and cause yourself to focus on them again.
Glad it went well...glad some things are changing.
Keep clinging to Him, even if by your fingernails.
Love,
PP
Hang in there! Answers to prayers don't usually look the way we think they are going to. TRUST is the all we are asked to do--the Lord will take care of the rest. Enjoy your weekend with one child. Who knows you might even get some Mommy time? Praying all goes well for everyone. julie :)
Hey Pam,
You are in my prayers. We don't know the plans God has for us and it's probably a good thing we don't, we do know he will cradle us or 'pull us out' anytime we cry out to him.
My problem is that I think I can handle it and wait forever to cry out to Him but thank God He always answers.
Much love,
Kiesha
you give me strength,,,,it's a blessing,and I am thankful.
God's graces embrace you mama
Tonia
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