Peace amidst the madness…

If you didn’t read last night's post, this one might not make that big of an impact.

I must tell you, first that after I wrote that, I DID go to bed.  I fell right to sleep.  I felt the miraculous power of peace.

I know my mind should be in turmoil.  I should be a mess.  But, I’m not.

The power of God’s peace amidst the storms of life still brings me to my face.  I am so thankful for that.

When I look over my list of tasks, errands, trials… some things are choices, some things are normal, some things are circumstances.  I choose to keep working on my cupboards because it is something that won’t be destroyed within hours of doing.  It gives me a sense of accomplishment. 

I stayed up and dealt with the living room carpet, because even though it is SO forgiving, it isn’t this forgiving!  And every time I walk in the room it frustrated me with it's dirt!  Kind of like the bathrooms were making me feel on Tuesday.  There are still many areas calling for 911 in my house… they just have to get in line.

I haven’t seen the floor of my laundry room in two weeks… it just doesn’t relent.

Then I try to figure out how in the world I would ever be holding down a regular, paying, job of any sorts in this season…  thankfulness floods me… my family, my church, my friends… all the financial support.  It isn’t normal.  I know that.  It humbles me to the core.

This morning when I woke up, I still had amazing peace.  I picked up the Bible Study I’ve been working through, Set My Heart On Fire by Catherine Martin.  This verse struck me all over…

“…the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will”  --Romans 8:26,27

What hit me so hard was the reality that this really is why I can have peace today.  Today I can trust that there is a God who has all the answers.  He has a perfect will for my life.  And by my surrender to Him, I can taste that.  There is also a Holy Spirit.  He is interceding for me with words that I can’t express.  How incredible is that thought when you find yourself having no idea what the answer is.

I THANK YOU THAT EVEN WHEN I DON’T UNDERSTAND OR KNOW WHAT TO PRAY, THAT I HAVE THIS PROMISE OF THE PRAYERS OF ONE WHO DOES KNOW.  ONE WHO DOES UNDERSTAND.  ONE WHO CAN SEE THE PERFECT WILL OF GOD AND THROUGH MY SURRENDER CAN ACCOMPLISH IT.  I GIVE MY LIFE, MY CIRCUMSTANCES, MY CHILDREN TO YOU TODAY, FATHER.  YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO.  IN JESUS NAME, AMEN.

You need to know that besides having some ladies over this afternoon for Bible Study, I will be home all day… until the ball game tonight.  Thank you for your prayers.  They mean so much.  They make an impact.  They change hearts.  I know.  Mine is a testimony of that change.

“When I think of all this, I fall to my knees and pray to the Father, the Creator of everything in heaven and on earth.  I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong.”  --Ephesians 3:14-17 NLT

Pam