Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Sometimes I'd like to forget...but then how would I remember?

Today is a day to remember.

"I will remember the deeds of the LORD; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago."
Psalms 77:11

Remember God's Faithfulness to our family.
"Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."
Hebrews 13:5
Remember that He has walked through every event, every pain, every trauma, every heartbreak, every betrayal, every hurtful word, every tear, every laugh, every smile, every moment... by our side.

"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze."
Isaiah 43:2
He has "Kept" us in the Palm of His hand.
"He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart."
Psalms 91:4
It's been 4 years today that HSSH left.

The details are painful.

The reality is hurtful.

God is big.

Yesterday, when I realized that today was the anniversary date, I mentioned it. Someone told me, "you are such an example".

"Example?" was my thought. Of what? How to survive living he*l and live to tell about it?

In another conversation with a friend, she asked me what I wanted that example to be. My answer? I want the example to be that God is Good. All the time. No matter what. I want that to be the example.

God has gotten us through the past 4 years.

God has brought healing where I didn't believe He could.

God gives me Hope of a future.

God fills in the gaps as I raise these kids.

God provides for our needs.

God comforts, heals, protects, speaks, leads, & guides.

He gets all the Glory.

All.

Today I remember that when everything I knew was shaken to the core. God was faithful.

Pam

9 comments:

Mom24 said...

I'm glad that your relationship with God can sustain you.

So sorry for the pain in your life.

Tim said...

Amen to that sister. Amen to that!

Love and Prayers,

Tim

Sheryl said...

woohoo!! God IS good. praying for you now.

Carol said...

Yes, He gets all the glory! And you, my faithful friend, will be blessed for that faithfulness and obedience.

Hugs & Blessings to you,
Carol

Jacob's Mom said...

I feel for you. I have been reading your blog for a while and find comfort and understanding in a lot of what you say. My HSSH left a year and a half ago for another woman. I still cry and have so much difficulty accepting it every day. Noone understands what it feels like unless you have been through it. I still struggle to find peace within myself. I know I will be there eventually. Thanks for sharing your story..

KEE said...

Love those verses. God is good ALL the time, even when you are walking through the fire and can't see it.

I just sent up a prayer for your family that God will wrap you in His peace and loving arms on this day.

Mom Of Many said...

Pam,

When I saw the title to your post on blogger I thought, "ugh, the anniversary" and then I felt sick to my stomach. You are right, I don't know what its like, but what I can imagine sounds horrible. Although there are no words that can bring comfort (other than God's word) I want you to know that I think you are one of the most courageous and brave women I know. You are indeed an example. You keep it real, you push through the pain and you acknowledge that God is completely faithful. YOu are my hero sweet sister - my hero!! I love coming to your blog because I would like to think that if I was walking in your shoes I would be as God-honoring as you.

I pray for you often. I pray for your kids. I pray that God meets each of your needs and ministers to your deepest desires. I pray that He continues to show you how much He loves you and your precious family.

You are loved!!
Linny xo

He & Me + 3 said...

Amen! You are that example Pam! Truly! God is good.

Paula V said...

Beautifully said. I had EVERY intention of texting you yesterday but forgot.