…Huge Sigh…
I used to pray very boldly that “if my kids did something wrong that God would reveal it to me”
I still pray that prayer… but the boldness is gone… I find myself not praying it as often… gripped by the fear of what would or could or has been revealed if & when I pray it.
Embarrassed by his behaviors… angry at his attitudes… wishing he would be different.
Telling myself recently that I need to pray very hard for the grace to love him right where he is at. To not compare him to others. To keep having faith that God is not out of control of this situation. To look at his heart & remember how good it really is.
To be glad that he is in a school where the standard is so high that the behaviors out weigh the talent. That the person out weighs the win.
He may have played his last game of high school basketball last weekend ever. I didn’t even know it.
Suspended for the last game of the season for his lies & his attitude.
Saying he won’t be playing his senior year.
Unless something changes we are on a real down hill dive…
Pray for healing.
Pray for hope.
Pray for help.
Pray for grace to keep loving.
Pray for restored hope in adults.
Pray that the respect for authority would be repaired.
Pray for protection for the rest of us.
Pray we can survive this.
Pray.
God, You have this right?? I am believing it. I am believing YOUR WORD that says YOU are the FATHER to the fatherless… PLEASE COME! HELP!
Pam
5 comments:
Thank you for the post. I was jolted into praying that God would reveal to me if my little boy is hiding something from me. I have been suspicious... but hadn't thought to ask God to reveal it to me. Next on to praying that God will give us wisdom to deal with the issue when it comes to light. Prayers for your son. So sorry!
Pam, prayers for both of you. Unfortunately God gave us free will, so Zach does have the power to choose his own path. I hope he listens to God's voice in his heart and makes wise choices for himself in the future.
Prayers for strength and peace for you.
praying for zach to respond to the Holy Spirit's nudging in his heart and mind.
Our downhill spiral that started with disrespect, then attitude, lies, fighting, expulsion....ended with a medi-vac flight, 3 hour brain surgery and six bolts in my son's head (who is the same age as Zach). Now we are trying to rebuild. Only words I can give in hindsight is crack down, don't trust, keep him close. Let him be pissed off at home where he is safe. Eventually he'll grow up and out of it, but if you give him to much rope (as I did) he may hang himself.
Praying for your son, for you, and for all of your family. I'm the single mother of 2 sons, personalities like night and day. It is hard, I know. It is scary. Praying:)
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